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...I get the feeling that if I'm on the side that makes the Lolita clothing I love so much, instead of the side that buys it, the thrill I get when I encounter new clothes will fade. And above all, if I start working for Baby, the Stars Shine Bright, I'll have to forfeit my standing as a Baby customer. I think I'd rather stay a pure fan of Baby, the Stars Shine Bright and nothing more. That seems to me a more luxurious way of life than joining the company and creating Baby, the Stars Shine Bright clothing myself. But there's no need to rush to a decision, is there, Ichigo? After all, I'm still just a kid, and unlike yourself, I am a Lolita. I do not believe in growing up. No matter how old I get, I shall remain devoted to ruffles and frills. That, after all, is what being a lolita is all about.
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dec.11
taking a break frm painting~~
btw i found my dream book again >_<;;; haha..my dreams were so lol and yet showed just how pathetically sad i was at the same time...............................read to see:
I was watching "I was a teenage werewolf." the main boy's name was Ray (and he was really cute, to boot), and he had a girlfriend, who rejected him later. So he went inside a carriage and hid his face.
A guy from "I was a teenage vampire" was going to beat him up, but we (me+ray) were driving a monster truck. Ray was doing poorly, because the truck was so massive, plus Ray was only a scrawny 14 year old. For example we would have to turn the street and Ray would yell "Noo~~~! Not a roundabout turn!!". We also ran over a truck that was turning.
My mom was throwing a reunion party, and there I saw her...mom...(ughh). I went to look for her, and found her sitting behind a window-piece. Her face was really stotic. I tried saying "Hi," really cheerfully but she didn't say anything back. =__=
sometime passed and we were looking at doujinshi (a Komado one, I think.)
Her: who's taking this?
me: me, who else?
Her: I know it's yours, but you don't have to take it.
I think this was her way of asking to borrow it, so I lent it to her, but demanded to get her phone number so she could return it later.
Her: it's the same was the old one...
me: but you moved...
actually, turns out she didn't move yet since the property tax on the apartment hasn't expired yet and they have to wait for it to expire before they can move. I walked with her past all these brand new houses with fake grass, and said goodbye.
after wards, I went with Ray and his GF to fight white masked rangers. We were outnumbered heavily, but we didn't even attempt to fight, just sloozed around and slowly watch our HP dwindle. In the end, we managed to get saved by a mysterious figure (??) and swimmed back to shore.
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i feel like changing
even if you're not wearing lolita, you might still be rebelling against your responsiblities. However, a lolita is openly admitting it through her clothes. Pride at remaining a child, this kind of thing is considered ridiculous by society, isn't it? So please don't be surprised at the fact that most of the world can't accept things like lolita.
For a lolita, not being able to get the dress you really want might be the only most distressing worry. because in a lolita's world, things like having to get up early for work, failing a test, or running and missing the last train doesn't exsist. A lolita is ignorant. It's not to say she doesn't feel sadness, but she only wants to know the romanticized sort of painful things. As such, lolitas can not be normal contributing members of society.
when I surround myself in frills I'm in reality closing myself away...so although a lolita wants you to think she's beautiful, deep inside she actually knows she's a fool.
When I was a child, I wanted to grow up so fast...but right now, grown up, troubled by everyday things and heart always heavy with worry, it's nautral that a person wants to go back to the carefree days, but if you have no worries you might also begin to look for something to worry about?
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²ΖTIME
"graduation" TIME
that day, we stayed up all night talking
until the sky was white with mist
the days where everyone were together
that time was precious
lalala...
evening,
standing by myself at the usual place
I remember letting go of
this town i'm so familiar with
as time goes on
I have to place things like dreams and hopes
on each pathway
as it was nearing dawn
we made a promise
(I feel forever...)
like the scattering in the sky
your heart is sparkling
someday when the time comes
your hand will be able to reach that dream
leaving behind the darkness
finding happiness
lalala...
getting used to walking through the street lined with trees
just to follow those memories
this road may end up anywhere
as time goes on
it seems like everyone's dreams
are becoming reality one-by-one
and if we are able to stand shoulder to shoulder
I want to meet up and celebrate
(I believe forever)
that day, the tears we shed
are things I will always remember even now
leaving behind the mistakes of the past
there's no meaning
only running through the present which is "right now"
lalala....
the things no one sees
(things like far-away dreams)
my thoughts that will never change
(Wo Wow Wow Wow)
even though we are apart/
we are the under the same sky
I am / I am
...not alone
like the scattering in the sky
your heart is sparkling
someday when the time comes
your hand will be able to reach that dream
leaving behind the darkness
finding happiness
that day, we stayed up all night talking
until the sky was white with mist
the days where everyone were together
that time was precious
lalala...
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TZ`
5cm
3 a.m. A phonecall from you.
At this late hour...what's wrong?
"Your voice...I just wanted to hear it."
Murmuring, Good night.
When I am eating with my friends,
When I am on the subway on the way home,
Your endless mail reach me every five minutes.
though we cannot meet,
even then I am still thinking of you,
that you feel painful for wishing
gI don't want us to be apart for even 5 cm."
everything from love, work, to friendship
the truth is I can't manage all of that yet,
but believe that the tomorrow we're moving toward is the same.
My feelings have not moved from you for even 1 mm
So, I want you to know.
Even for the 5 cm of uneasiness that has built up in your heart
I will warm and melt it for you.
The "you" when we just met
strong in spirit and didn't show any weaknesses
your stubborn heart
seemed to be closed tightly
The smile you showed in front of me
The profile that looked down with lonliness
Those expressions I saw for the first time
I felt it was something special
I need you more than you think
this soaring feeling
how can I convey it to you?
Unpredictable like the weather chart
your feelings that make your heart thump,
but believe that the sky we look up to is always the same.
Your selfishness and your binding tears
I want to lovingly embrace all of that, you know.
your 5 cm of wishes, piled up in complete white
I will grant them, I promise
everything from love, work, to friendship
the truth is I can't manage all of that yet,
but believe that the tomorrow we're moving toward is the same.
My feelings have not moved from you for even 1 mm
So, I want you to know.
Even for the 5 cm of uneasiness that has built up in your heart
I will warm and melt it for you.
So that our feelings
will not part further than 5 cm....
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